What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility

Couples experiencing infertility often receive well-meaning but extremely insensitive "advice." We can all list the most popular ones: "Just relax and you'll get pregnant," or "adopt and you'll get pregnant," or "things happen for a reason", of the most painful from those who think they've got the goods on God's plan, "Maybe God never meant for you to have children." The sheer audacity of making a statement like that never fails to amaze me.

"These same people would never walk up to someone seeking treatment for cancer and say, "Maybe God never meant for you to live." However, because I am infertile, I'm supposed to get on with my life. It's hard to understand that people can not see infertility for what it is, a disease for which I have to seek treatment. What if Jonas Salk had said to the parents of polio victims, "Maybe God meant for thousands of our children to be cripples, live in an iron lung or die." What if he'd never tried to find a cure? Who could think for one minute that that was God's plan?

"What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?"

I think he meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure for infertility."

No, God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let him down."

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God has singled me out for a special treatment. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

"While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when he handed me infertility. I already know."

(Excerpted from a post on ivfconnections.com - IVF Boards)

Title edited : because yes KATE, you're right, it is NOT the will of God for any woman to be childless. "I will take away sickness from among you, and none will miscarry or be barren in your land." Exodus 23:25-26

A Poem I Found

I found this poem and it touched my heart. For those of you who know Matt and I, you know our journey.

Some Day Baby

I wait, and I wait and I wait and I wait.
The slow horse still wanting out of the gate.
Hoping you'll begin before it's too late.
Where are you? My someday baby.

Each night I pray a prayer for you.
It is a prayer for daddy and me too.
I pray taht I will someday feel you
My kicking someday baby.

Everyday I see children everywhere around.
I long to hear your laughing, cooing sound.
Your fingers areound my one tightly wound
My happy someday baby.

How will you smile? What color your eyes?
How swill you like your birthday surprise?
Will you come to mommy to comfort your cries?
Wondrous you, my someday baby.

I touch terry sleepers, and booties so small
And wonder how much longer my heart can bear all.
Hoping and wishing through now my third fall
To spoil my someday baby.

How I long to rock you to sleep,
And to rub your head until you dream deep.
To watch you roll over and sit and then crrep
My sweet little someday baby.

The things others think are a pain you see
Sound like a piece of heaven to me.
To be awakened by something other than dreams
My pleasure, my someday baby.

I don't know when you'll see this, or if you'llk now
How much my heart dreamed of you, prayed for you so.
To feel you, and watch you and help you to grow
My love, my someday baby.

I do hope and I pray, and sneak cries though the day
with hope daddy and I will have you "someday".
The sooner rather than later you can hear my say
"With love I welcome you", my someday baby.

Trying this out...Thanks to Laura

Well, I have been so intriqued by Laura's blog, so I thought maybe Matt and I could start one! Granted, we don't have any cute children to write about, but we do have some pretty cool cats! (Matt loves just one of them, I love them both).

We are finally getting settled into "our" house in Indiana. Matt is LOVING his new job and I am still in the process of finding one. I am growing accustomed to being at home all day though, unfortunately, we have these pesky things called BILLS!

That's it for post number 1. Hopefully we will have more exciting things to post about in the near future.